Brave

Yesterday, I was having lunch with my friend in a new cafe, near my boarding house, when at the time, a foreigner came to the cafe and sat besides me. She was about forty and beautiful. She was a good-looking woman. Her appearance looked elegance although it was not glamorous. She looked friendly. 

Observing her appearance, there was a challenge came to my mind. I challenged myself to talk to her. It was creepy, right? Yes! Because I had been a shy girl, too afraid to show myself and used to hide myself. I had been too afraid to express what I want in my life and say what I wanna say. There were worries inside my head. I was not confident enough and I was afraid that I could not talk in English fluently. I did not trust in myself. Then, I questioned myself, why should I afraid? Let's have a nice try!

There I was... Trying to approach the lady. I asked (of course politely, can you imagine my face!) her whether she would permit me to take a photo with her or not. She respected me in a friendly way, but she asked back to me, what the purpose of taking a photo with her is. I explained that I was wearing a T-Shirt bought in my friend's online shop, so I would like to do like a promotion, like endorse.. She asked again, where I will upload it. I said to Instagram. Then, she rejected my request politely. She said she was not in a beautiful appearance and not good-looking enough to be taken her pict. I was embarrassed honestly because I was rejected, but still I take the positive point of this. (OMG)

Buuuuuttttttttt, I did not stop at that point. Although she rejected my request, I still showed my good attitude in front of her by asking her some common questions, so that we could build a short conversation. Do you know, I never expect that she would be very polite and respectful to my hospitality. She was really nice and sharing some things with me.. She has just stayed in Jogja for two days.. She comes from a nice country in Europe and her understanding of Bahasa Indonesia is good. She speaks Indonesian quite fluently.. From this experience, I learn that we (you and I) need to be brave to show yourself. You and I gotta trust in your ability because you and I are stronger, smarter, braver than we think.

GOOD NIGHT :)

I TELL YOU THIS

Seringkali saya dibuat kebingungan oleh masyarakat, pandangan umum, dan persepsi khalayak, bahkan oleh apa yang sudah 'terbiasa' mereka lakukan. Ya, kehidupan memang membingungkan dan penuh misteri. Namun, yang masih sering membuat saya prihatin adalah pandangan masyarakat atas diri saya. Memang usia saya masih terbilang sangat muda, 20 tahun, tetapi bukan berarti saya ini hanyalah seorang gadis ingusan yang bodoh, sehingga bisa dimainkan seenaknya, diperlakukan sesuka hati, ataupun dikadalin. Tidak. Saya hanya heran mengapa banyak orang sering melakukan hal tersebut kepada kaum hawa. 

Dalam kasus percintaan, contohnya, jika ada suatu masalah, pastilah si perempuan yang akan (dan seringnya) terlihat jelek di mata umum. Perselingkuhan dalam suatu hubungan merupakan contoh yang sangat jelas. Sudah pasti di setiap kasus seperti itu, si perempuanlah yang akan disalahkan. Perempuanlah yang akan selalu dianggap buruk. Perempuan lemah. Perempuan selalu menjadi pihak yang rugi dan dirugikan. Apapun itu masalahnya, ya, perempuan selalu menjadi korban dan seringkali dikorbankan. 

Saya tidak tahu apakah memang saya yang terlalu 'inosen' sehingga belum mengerti tentang kehidupan yang sebenarnya. Namun, di mata saya, itulah yang terjadi. Perempuan sering terlihat 'jelek'. Apakah perempuan harus melakukan dan menjadi segala sesuatu yang sudah 'dipatok' oleh masyarakat? Apakah seekor merpati harus terus terperangkap dalam sangkarnya dan tidak bisa terbang bebas? 

Seringkali saya merasa, bahwa hidup saya sebagai seorang perempuan itu sulit. Saya harus berjuang sendiri meraih apa yang saya impikan, saya ingin sekolah yang tinggi, saya ingin berkarir, saya ingin merasakan kebebasan, saya ingin ini itu. Namun, saya tidak hanya berjuang untuk mendapatkan apa yang saya impikan. Saya pun harus berjuang melawan common sense dan seringkali saya menyadari bahwa diri saya harus go beyond the limit and break the rules. A woman breaks the rule? 

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